I’ve certainly been busy with things. In addition to having recently gone on a long trip which I certainly needed to help distance myself from everything else that threatens existence in itself, I’ve been messing around with occasional posts on Cohost, a site that is sort of like Tumblr but isn’t, at least from my findings. And when not doing that, it’s mainly just been work.
I’ve been looking into a number of things to do with the site. As far as mirrors, I have no idea if seeking alternate protocols would work in a situation where the HTTP(S) layer is completely compromised through events somehow out of my control, but if anything, it’s another hobby to mess around with when I already have so much I want to do, like learning other human languages instead of coding ones with anticipation for future vacations. I’m pretty sure one of my issues is just wanting to do everything but only having enough time for a few things at most. And that just keeps inflicting choice paralysis onto myself. I really should just focus on doing things, even if I’m really just jumping between a dozen things depending on my mood for the day, or however much is left of one after work. Actually doing that has been a difficult habit to get into.
Maybe I also feel rushed at the moment, like I have to look into these alternate paths like other protocols or archival methods or ways of fleeing the country or overthrowing aspects of government and so on in case I end up needing them very soon, because I just have this impending feeling of dread as well. Mainly this year has been a terrible sign for anyone who’s online. And something about by the end of 2025 that humanity itself will have had something happen that greatly impacts everything from then on for better or worse. And given human history I only anticipate worse things first. I haven’t been going to any crazy evangelical events about the return of Jesus and all that prophetical stuff that would put this idea into my mind, rather this is just a feeling I’ve gotten on my own. I also implore that anyone who reads this doesn’t start to think of me as some kind of prophet or fortune teller either and make some kind of cult around it. That sort of behavior would only make things worse.
Of course in the hypothetical case where I cease to exist by the end of that year or some soon future year through whatever means that hopefully aren’t by my own hand out of desperation, I’d rather my remaining time be as fun as I can make it, which is why I like to go on these trips. And I’d like to get as many of these in as I can before travel becomes unreasonable due to some kind of massive global conflict or police states taking over all government branches or something like that. At the moment the main limits are the amount of time off I get from work and my general budget, and I’d like those to remain the worst of the limitations regardless of if and how I overcome them.
I still feel like I’m racing to secure the last bit of fun I can have before everything goes to hell and then probably have to figure out how to prepare and consume human flesh without getting sick from it, but maybe if I manage to survive the initial apocalypse thing, I might be able to hook up some power from batteries or solar or wind, depending which still exist at the time, and play a bunch of games so I don’t go too insane too quickly. And this is the real reason why always online single player is a very bad idea. That and world governments being increasingly scared of the internet again, claiming that children are the most important thing ever because their minds are young and most easily molded into unquestioned loyalty.